The Perfect Kiss

Just when you think its safe to cross through the green pastures Arrows begin shooting at you from every horizontal direction. You pray Lord I rebuke these arrows in the name of Jesus begone wit ya.
You wave your hands shout Hallelujah and proceed forward into the green pastures again.

But oh no! Fiery Darts aimed at ya flying horizontally and vertically. You say devil, you are a liar, no weapon that is formed against me shall be able to prosper.
With you spiritual eyes on you see past the lights, smoke, and mirrors disrupting your peace and you cast down the fiery dart that are your imagination and you command your mind to the obedience of Christ.
You do a dance of praise unto God like David did and rejoice in your King and Savior who was, who is, and will always be.

You press forward into the green pasture with a step that speaks glory to God forever and ever........But then the ground shakes, the waters overtake you, the very wind snatches away at your breath and your heart feels as though it is forever broken and only ashes remain. The devil says in your ear...I got ya know. A chill crawls up your spine and the darkness envelopes you. You try to break free but can't for you are also bound in chains, bondage's, and yoked up.
The Holy Spirit blows a kiss in your face and your strength comes. You stand prostrate in the devils face and say OH NO YOU DON'T DEVIL. I've been bought with a with a price I can not repay, I know who I am and whose I am. This battle is not mine its the Lords so I call forth the Angel to attack this enemy. Lord make this crooked path straight that I may enter in. In the blink of an eye the Lords Angels overpowered the devil and his demons. The Lord with a word PEACE-BE-STILL settled the ground, the wind, and the waters.

The Lord leads you by His side through the green pastures all the while......restoring your soul.

Wrong Thinking

I am an open book, as a matter of fact, my first name could have been open book. I believe that living your life behind a mask is a form of bondage and no one is blessed as a result. The experiences we have in life can be a great blessing to other who are or have shared the same or similar experiences. Its terribly tormenting to live your life as a slave to what others think. I would rather be open and help one person than live my life in a closet with a strategically decorated door and help no one.

My focus today is on Wrong Thinking. This is a subject that I know a lot about. For many years I was a prisoner to negativity. Because of the pain I went through and the struggle that I had am determined to help others who are or have experienced the same thing. Let me assure you that it is only by the Great Love of God and the power of the Resurrection of Jesus Christ that anyone can become free of this torment. I was bombarded in my mind constantly with negative thoughts to the point that I thought that I had lost my mind. I hated myself and felt like all I did was bring destruction to myself and those around me. I felt like I was King Midas but nothing that I touched turned to gold. The things I touched shriveled up and died. I even became convinced that God did not love me. I just couldn't see how He could. In my mind I was a huge embarrassment to Him and the Kingdom. I am happy to say today that I was in wrong thinking. Day by day God is helping me to become stronger in this. I felt so drawn to do this blog but I almost didn't because I kept thinking there is so much work left for me to do. I thought I need to grow more and be perfect at this before I share it but the truth of the matter is we are all a work in Christ. None of us has arrived, none of us is perfect. Even seasoned mature Christians including leaders have to come against the negative voices that would try to hinder them. Philippians 4:8 has become the air that I breathe. Take this scripture and swallow it into your spirit but also seek out wise Godly Counsel and Prayer so that you can become completely free. I pray that you are richly blessed.

Philippians 4:8 (Amplified Bible)
8 For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].

Romans 12:2 (Amplified Bible)
2 Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].

Romans 12 (The Message)
Place Your Life Before God:
1-2 So here's what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.

I Give Myself Away Pt 2 (Here I am to worship)

Chosen - Worth It All ( The Ramp )

The Promises of God are Yes and Amen!

When you need to encourage yourself!!!

The Lord, He is my Shepherd.
I shall not want.
He causes me to rest in plush green pastures.
He brings restoration to my soul for the sake of His Holy name.
He leads me in a path of righteousness or right living.
Although, I will at times, have to walk through the valley of the shadow of death......its just a shadow.
What can a shadow do to me?
Therefore, I will fear no evil.
For the Lord my God is with me.
"Praise God"
His rod of protection and staff of guidance comforts me.
You prepare a beautiful table for me in the presence of my enemies.
What awesome blessings are upon my table.
You anoint my head with oil, and my brimming cup overflows.
Surely - Certainly goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life;
And through the length of my days the house of the Lord shall be my dwelling place.

When I feel alone or when I need a friend and no one is there, I run to the rock. He never lets me down. Be blessed.

Angry No More

Every single one of us has a journey to take in this life. We all have a story, and I am no different. As I live on this Earth I hope to grow well and learn from my mistakes and move past them. I have witnessed first hand what can happen to a person when they can't move past what has happened to them in the past. I have always purposed to live my life this way but at some point along the line I lost my way. I became a prisoner to the traumatic events of my life. Things where not going in the way I thought that they would. I started to hate myself and I felt like a failure. It seemed that everything I touched turned bad. In my eyes nothing that I really wanted was within my reach. I could see all the things I wanted to achieve but I could not grasp them. As time went by little by little I began to lose hope. Bitterness to God himself was growing. I wanted to prove that I was more than the girl who got pregnant in High School. It was hard watching my friends go on to have great lives while I was back here living with the regret of putting my hope in a man who didn't love anyone but himself. The sad thing is that I made that mistake many times after that. By the time my Paisley came into my life I found myself attending church. I thought that Jesus was a fictional character like superman that some writer made up to sell books. But in time I found that He is real and I embraced him into my broken life. I thought that everything would just come together but I still had to go through many things that were for me devastating. It seemed that a happy ending was not in the cards for me. When my marriage collapsed I in a way married my job but my job rejected me too. Things were hard even at church. A lot of people had a problem with me and it was clear that I annoyed them. To me it added up to FAILURE at home, FAILURE at marriage, FAILURE at work, FAILURE at church. I began to get angry on the inside. Why....Why....Why....I couldn't understand why. What did I do, I kept repenting over and over again because I thought that maybe I was being punished. It seemed that even when people looked at me there was disappointment in their eyes. As though they were saying WHAT A WASTE. I didn't even realize until recently that I was angry at God. I was offended at Him because I couldn't understand why he left me out here suffering. When I was a little girl I was hurt throughout my childhood, and the one I thought should protect me didn't. It was like history repeating itself. What I didn't understand was that although God allowed these things to happen to me, he was there giving me the STRENTGH to endure it. EVEN WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL HE WAS THERE. I felt compelled to share this because I know what it is to hurt and find no relief but there is a BALM IN GILEAD. I don't think that people share often enough in the body of Christ what they have gone through and how they got over. Let me tell you that JESUS IS LORD. He can and He will supply all of your needs. I am not just talking about materials and finances, I am talking about those things that matter the most. I thought that I had lost my mind, and you know what,,,, I did but when I was down and out and trying to find relief from my pain in food, books, movies, my computer or whatever, He was right there. He never left me or forsook me, but at times in your life God will seem to be far away. But allow the Holy Spirit to remind you that He is ever there by your side. Please know that you are not doing yourself any favors by not telling God how you're feeling. He already knows so you mind as well tell Him. I realize that if I had not gone through these things I would not be who I am today. I watched my brother go from being healthy and muscular and vibrant to a shell of a man. Nevertheless, although he has suffered so much he kept a positive attitude. He was being the protector that He always is with His family. I have spent enough time with my brother to know that He it was getting to Him. As the Lord had me minister to my wonderful brother, I began to realize that I was also ministering to myself. “Praise the Lord”. As I was praying for my dear brother God was also healing me. I had some nice moments in the Lord with my brother. I can't really explain it. I wish that I could. Be encouraged. You here people say all the time that no matter what you are going through it will be alright. Let me tell you that it will be if you put your trust in God. trust him even if you don't understand what's going on. 

Psalm 63:1-4 (The Message) 
1 God—you're my God! I can't get enough of you! 
I've worked up such hunger and thirst for God, 
traveling across dry and weary deserts. 

2-4 So here I am in the place of worship, eyes open, 
drinking in your strength and glory. 
In your generous love I am really living at last! 
My lips brim praises like fountains. 
I bless you every time I take a breath; 
My arms wave like banners of praise to you.